“It's not who you are that holds you back,
it's who you think you're not”. –author unknown
It only takes a moment.
U let the thought in…and then it spreads
It spreads
Into more thoughts and self doubt, and destructive, negative inner dialogue.
A simple example was tonight I decided to run.
I got some excellent running shoes finally and I decided to give them a go…
I thought for sure I would be able to run at least a mile without stopping.
Wrong.
I lasted 7:36 sec before I had to walk for 30 sec.
I ended up running 1.25 mi in a horrid time and walked 2 more x's!
I instantly thought, “you suck at running, like sooooo bad.”
So I did a ton of squats, plea’s, walking lunges, and jumping squats to make up for my lack of running skills. The whole time having negative inner dialogue about my dumb running skills.
My lack of stamina, endurance, and sheer will to push through.
I tweeted my frustration, I facebooked my frustration
All self-doubt, loathing and beating myself up.
As I was drinking my water I got sooooo drowsy and this was only minutes after I ended my workout!
Then I remembered, I went to bed at 3:30am last night and got up at 7:30am. I didn’t nap today, I’ve kept going all day long, and here i was running at 8pm at night.
Perhaps my body was just TIRED! It just simply did not have the energy it needed to sustain a good run.
That could be an excuse, but I realized I am so hard on myself all the time!!
Did I think I’d ever be a Zumba Instructor?? NO!
I just took a class, and class by class I loved it more and more until opportunity knocked where they needed a teacher and I took it!
I almost missed that opportunity by telling myself I couldn’t possibly do it,
I couldn’t possibly lead a class, or come up with routines!
And yet I do and I love it so very much!
There are so many times we discredit ourselves and we let negative self-talk define us and control us.
I have to say NO, to those thoughts from now on.
So I had a bad day,
so I just started running,
give yourself a break, Hillary!!
I never succeeded at my goals in life or gotten through trials
by telling myself I couldn’t.
by telling myself I couldn’t.
It succeeded by telling myself, “why not?” and “yes you can”
So if you find yourself battling negative self-talk,
Stop it.
You can just as easily let the positive, supportive, encouraging thoughts in,
They come in the same way the bad ones do.
So kick those negative thoughts out
And let all the happy, positive thoughts in!!
Cuz you CAN do it!
And someday I can be a runner.
and bounce a quarter off my booty
and I’ll just keep telling myself “you can do it”, until I get there.
love your positivity girl! i do this every time i get on a work out kick, i'll be going so good for a couple weeks and see no results so i get down on myself and just stop going cuz i think i cant do it. i'm in one of those slumps right now and this reminded me to get going and DO IT. thanks sweet girl. i love your encouragement to everyone and i'm SUPER inspired by your zumba instructor-ing :D
ReplyDeleteHillary! You say it perfectly. We are all the same, aren't we? I love your positivity! Go Hillary Go! xox!
ReplyDeleteyou. are. AWESOME!! i love you! i was pretty dang crappy at running too. i avoided athletic activity like the plague until i started in with zumba and then running. (yay zumba!) and while i'm still not where i want to be, i'm certainly better than i USED to be just because i've pushed myself to GET UP and DO IT. which is weird for me because i have no self discipline. :) while running, i crank the tunes, sing to myself (or out loud if anyone is so unfortunate as to hear me), take note of what color the sky is, watch birds fly by, do zumba routines in my head (although i'd REALLY love to just stop and do it on the side of the road, baby!) whatever it takes to keep my mind off of "my knee hurts, my lungs are about to explode, now my hip hurts" and some mornings it comes down to "i'll run to that corner/tree/sign/whatever and then i'm walking" only to get there and say "ok, i'll get to THAT corner/tree/sign/whatever and THEN i'm walking" i'm still a work in progress, but it is slowly getting easier, and i'm able to run farther. :) you're amazing and you're SO much stronger than you know! :) get it girl!!
ReplyDeleteOh girl I feel ya! I went on a solid hour and a half walk with my mom and LJ in the strolled this morning and boy do I feel it now! It's so hard to not be hard on myself cause its been far too long since I've walked. But I guess its better than not going and at least I worked hard enough to still be feeling it! Proud of you for going, especially on so little sleep!
ReplyDelete1. You need lots of rest and good nutrition to sustain a "run"...I know! Let's pretend I am an expert :)
ReplyDelete2. You be nice to yourself. The fact that you are out there trying is the amazing thing. Just by trying, you are a winner.
3. Not everyday is going to be your best day. Just always give it 100% and you should be so proud!!!
4. I like to number my comments!
I love you, and I would be your running buddy any day!
I used to say I was a runner. I don't say that anymore. Im still fun though and thats all that matters, and you for sho have your wittiness keepin ya you!! Love ya
ReplyDeleteall i have to say is this "can't never did anything". and you know who said it. repeatedly. all through our lives. you just said that, but a lot more long windedly. like your running and i'd like to remind you of your altitude there. remember me almost DYING even though i'm an experienced runner from the altitude. you'll have to adjust to that to. its different OUTSIDE :) so yes. learning curve. you'll do it!!! cause can't never did anything. ;)
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