Sept 11, 2011

10yrs.

I remember Bewtcut and I were getting ready for work and he received a phone call from his sister to turn the T.V. on because we had been attacked.
Are we really seeing a full-size plane crashing into the twin towers??

The images we saw were so surreal, it seemed like a dream or a movie.

I remember being almost frozen, thinking this couldn't actually be happening...

i'm sure the majority of Americans felt that way, how...why...who? would do such a thing?

I know i was scared, in disbelief, and had such an aching sorrow in my heart and stomach that i had never felt before.

I don't remember getting to work, but i remember once there, all we did was look online at all the footage and news coverage.  By noon, my boss finally told us to all go home, nobody came in that day and we should all be home with our families.  My boss was the only man in an office of girls, so we were all emotional, but i think that day transcended every gender, religion, creed, what have you and just struck the core of every human being alive.

I remember finding out 4 days later that i was pregnant with our first child.

We were still newly married, the country was still reeling from being attacked and i find out we're going to have a baby.  I was so excited, but so scared at the same time, i was fearful for what the world would be like...but it was a sweet reminder that life carries on and perseveres and joy can come from the deepest sorrow.

I don't know for certain if Sept 11th was what catapulted my husband into his military career, but it was something he had long been dreaming of doing and worked towards when he was in high school.

 A year later he left banking for good and joined the Air National Guard

and became a Linguist/Cryptologist in the Intelligence Squadron.

He works everyday to keep our country free, and i am honored and proud of his decision to do so.

All of us in the United States and around the world have been forever changed from the thoughtless, cruel, heartless, murderous acts of terrorists in our country.

It still stings, it still brings such emotion to the surface as if it just happened...

I wish our country would stay banded together and of one-mind as we were in the aftermath of this tragedy.

We showed true grace, humanity, and love to one another

even as strangers, and that's how it should always be.

And i know many question if God is real after such a tragic event, but i know He was with all of us that day, even those who perished.

We truly must never forget, we must remember and come together as a country, loving each other and thanking our God for living in a free, beautiful, wonderful country

The United States of America.

I hope you express your love to those precious loved ones in your life today and always.

and take a moment to love your fellowman a bit more as well.

We will never forget.